Earth Angels

i have not been the same since my dad passed. When I think about what happened I honestly feel like I'm having a horrible nightmare & like I'm really not here... some sort of outer body feeling where I wish I'd wake up soon but nothing happens... then one of my little ones comes & wipes my face off and says something funny like "mommy, stop fake crying" or something sweet like "pls don't cry mommy". My earth angels!